For almost seven months I didn't smoke. I was on the patch. It didn't help much. Even though I was getting nicotine it wasn't enough. For the whole seven months I craved continually. Since I quit my mental health was not very good. I wasn't able to focus and concentrate on my research and writing. I had a terrible time at work. Basically I just wasn't able to function very well. I have just done the bare things that needed to be done. I haven't accomplished much since I quit.
Finally I just got fed up with the whole thing and started smoking again yesterday. I am not upset with myself and I am quite glad I started again. Just since yesterday my mental health has improved almost 100%. I have a lot more energy since I quit. When I wasn't smoking I didn't have much energy. I wasn't able to as much as I did before I quit.. I was always tired and slept in a lot. The whole experience was simply a nightmare.
A lot of people are disappointed in me for starting again but it is my life not theirs. I have perfect peace of mind since I started. I am glad I started again. It cost a lot of money to smoke and tobacco went up quite a bit since I quit but I will solve that problem by smoking moderately and have been successful at doing this. That is difficult to do but I am determined to do so. I have to moderate because I have a very limited income.
I personally believe that my life will greatly improve since I started again. I basically had two choices. Have good physical health and poor mental health, or have poor physical health but good mental health. I have free will to do whatever I decide to do and I used my freewill to smoke again. Frankly I do not care about all those people out there that are dead against smoking and what they think or have to say about my smoking.
I would like to end this article by stating I am completely happy and content with my decision. In the article I previously wrote about my quitting wasn't very accurate because I just happened to be having a good day that day. That my regular daily experience most of the time it was like I have just described in this article.