I have been doing a lot of soul searching about what I would like to accomplish in life outside my marriage and three part time jobs.
I presently work at Flyer Services putting flyers together. I also have two writing jobs. I write for the Schizophrenia Newsletter published by the Kings County Chapter of the Schizophrenia Society. I also write for the Mental Health Perspective Newsletter published by the Kings County Branch of the Canadian Mental Health Association.
These three things keep me pretty busy but not busy enough. When I was severely ill I accomplished nothing in life. I was totally useless. For fifteen to twenty years I suffered from what the Doctors labeled me as "long term chronically mentally ill."
About nine years ago the Doctors found the right medication. My mental illness is almost in complete remission. I am also recovering from the disease of addiction and alcoholism. I have been clean and sober for almost nine years.
Now that I am well I have that drive deep within to do things, be successful and accomplish things in life. I personally believe that "when it's all over all that matters is what we have done."
When I pass on from this life I want to leave behind me a legacy of things that I have accomplished. I am having a hard time deciding what else I would like to accomplish both spiritually and in my secular life.
Concerning my secular life I want to have a career and bring in more income than I bring in at the present moment. I consider my two writing jobs as my career but I would like to advance my writing career and make more income from it. It is a very difficult thing to break into the free lance writing business. Especially since I am a new writer just starting out.
I have also been considering getting training at a collage or university and getting a job in the field of my study for a career. But that is not practical. It costs thousands of dollars and will take up a lot of time. I am getting older and by the time I graduate it will almost be time to retire.
I have also been considering starting up my own business buying and selling books. As you can see I have lots of ideas floating around in my head and I just can't decide what I want to do. I believe the main reason I am having a hard time deciding is because of my obsessive compulsive disorder. I have trouble making decisions and when I do make one I cannot carry it through to the end. I change my mind and start something else. I am just going around in circles.
I am hoping to get control of my OCD and make a decision and carry it through to the end. I want to decide what I truly want to accomplish in life and work on my decision until the day I die. I need to draw up a plan with all the goals and objectives written down and work on them on a daily basis. When I have accomplished one set of goals and objectives then move on to the next set of goals and objectives on the plan. Eventually I will have accomplished the things that I have decided to accomplish in life.
This isn't going to be easy. I have a lot of hard work ahead of me. But I am bound and determined to succeed. I am not going to give up and just keep plugging along. Some day I will have fulfilled my destiny in life and die in peace knowing that I have accomplished the things that I have set out to accomplish.
I just wanted to share these things with my readers.
Bye for now.
I presently work at Flyer Services putting flyers together. I also have two writing jobs. I write for the Schizophrenia Newsletter published by the Kings County Chapter of the Schizophrenia Society. I also write for the Mental Health Perspective Newsletter published by the Kings County Branch of the Canadian Mental Health Association.
These three things keep me pretty busy but not busy enough. When I was severely ill I accomplished nothing in life. I was totally useless. For fifteen to twenty years I suffered from what the Doctors labeled me as "long term chronically mentally ill."
About nine years ago the Doctors found the right medication. My mental illness is almost in complete remission. I am also recovering from the disease of addiction and alcoholism. I have been clean and sober for almost nine years.
Now that I am well I have that drive deep within to do things, be successful and accomplish things in life. I personally believe that "when it's all over all that matters is what we have done."
When I pass on from this life I want to leave behind me a legacy of things that I have accomplished. I am having a hard time deciding what else I would like to accomplish both spiritually and in my secular life.
Concerning my secular life I want to have a career and bring in more income than I bring in at the present moment. I consider my two writing jobs as my career but I would like to advance my writing career and make more income from it. It is a very difficult thing to break into the free lance writing business. Especially since I am a new writer just starting out.
I have also been considering getting training at a collage or university and getting a job in the field of my study for a career. But that is not practical. It costs thousands of dollars and will take up a lot of time. I am getting older and by the time I graduate it will almost be time to retire.
I have also been considering starting up my own business buying and selling books. As you can see I have lots of ideas floating around in my head and I just can't decide what I want to do. I believe the main reason I am having a hard time deciding is because of my obsessive compulsive disorder. I have trouble making decisions and when I do make one I cannot carry it through to the end. I change my mind and start something else. I am just going around in circles.
I am hoping to get control of my OCD and make a decision and carry it through to the end. I want to decide what I truly want to accomplish in life and work on my decision until the day I die. I need to draw up a plan with all the goals and objectives written down and work on them on a daily basis. When I have accomplished one set of goals and objectives then move on to the next set of goals and objectives on the plan. Eventually I will have accomplished the things that I have decided to accomplish in life.
This isn't going to be easy. I have a lot of hard work ahead of me. But I am bound and determined to succeed. I am not going to give up and just keep plugging along. Some day I will have fulfilled my destiny in life and die in peace knowing that I have accomplished the things that I have set out to accomplish.
I just wanted to share these things with my readers.
Bye for now.
2 comments:
People who have either condition typically overestimate the risk in a situation and underestimate their own resources for coping. Sufferers avoid what they fear instead of developing the skills to handle the kinds of situations that make them uncomfortable. Often enough, a lack of social skills is at the root. Some types of anxiety—obsessive-compulsive disorder, panic disorder, and social phobia—are particularly associated with depression. http://www.xanax-effects.com/
Hi Tony,
Thanks for sharing your thoughts on your career and future accomplishments. I too have schizophrenia, and I find it a struggle to decide what I want... and following through is just as difficult. But I too have hope, and I know someday I will accomplish all that I want to.
Regarding your writing career -- you are an excellent writer, and your words inspire me and give hope. Have you ever considered writing for Schizophrenia Digest? Personally, I think your writing would fit in really well there.
I wish you the best for your career, and for everything else!
Mike
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