I have a real deep interest in religion. I have been like that for many many years. I am wondering if it is getting out of hand. I am wondering if I am getting too obsessed with religion. I am wondering if my obsessive compulsive disorder is getting out of hand. I am wondering if it is my OCD that is causing me to get too obsessed with religion. It is true that it is my spiritual and religious beliefs that are responsible for my recovery from mental illness and addiction. I think that it is getting out of hand. As time goes on I seem to be getting more and more obsessed with religion. It is getting to the point that it is causing me much concern about my sanity. There is nothing wrong with religion if it doesn't take control of ones thoughts and emotions. I am starting to have a feeling of having no control over how much religion occupies my thoughts and feelings. I just can't get these thoughts of religion out of my head.
Lately I have been communicating with the Mormons. I have been doing some research on this religion. I am wondering if they are truly a cult like everyone says they are. I must confess that their religion does appeal to me but I am also having doubts whether I should believe it. I would just love to get rid of my obsessions with religion. I don't know how to accomplish this though. I think I am going to stop all reading on religion and stop discussing it with people. At least for now. I am going to try to occupy my mind with other things such as the business Kim and I have started. I want to become 100% focused on our business. I also want to continue my research on mental illness. It is one thing to believe and pray to God but it is totally another thing to become obsessed with religion. They are not the same. In fact I am thinking about putting the spiritual life out of my mind as well. Forget about even the 12 steps and anything that has a spiritual connection to it. Just put all thoughts of spirituality and religion totally out of my mind. I think that this is necessary if I am going to get back my sanity concerning this problem. My sanity is important to me. I will try my very best to successfully get rid of all thoughts about religion. I personally feel that this is necessary concerning where I am at right now in my life. I have more important things to think about and accomplish in my life right now. I have a wonderful relationship with my wife. I have two writing jobs. I have another part time job being a collator. Kim and I have our business to attend to at the present moment. In fact starting October 4th this year we will be selling Kim's product at the Flea Market in Grenich. We will be there all winter up until the spring. I am hoping that we will be successful there and sell lots of product. It will be very difficult to accomplish these goals but I desperately need to get all thoughts of religion totally out of my mind. I will have to figure out how to do this by trial and error but I am determined to succeed. Wish me luck.
Lately I have been communicating with the Mormons. I have been doing some research on this religion. I am wondering if they are truly a cult like everyone says they are. I must confess that their religion does appeal to me but I am also having doubts whether I should believe it. I would just love to get rid of my obsessions with religion. I don't know how to accomplish this though. I think I am going to stop all reading on religion and stop discussing it with people. At least for now. I am going to try to occupy my mind with other things such as the business Kim and I have started. I want to become 100% focused on our business. I also want to continue my research on mental illness. It is one thing to believe and pray to God but it is totally another thing to become obsessed with religion. They are not the same. In fact I am thinking about putting the spiritual life out of my mind as well. Forget about even the 12 steps and anything that has a spiritual connection to it. Just put all thoughts of spirituality and religion totally out of my mind. I think that this is necessary if I am going to get back my sanity concerning this problem. My sanity is important to me. I will try my very best to successfully get rid of all thoughts about religion. I personally feel that this is necessary concerning where I am at right now in my life. I have more important things to think about and accomplish in my life right now. I have a wonderful relationship with my wife. I have two writing jobs. I have another part time job being a collator. Kim and I have our business to attend to at the present moment. In fact starting October 4th this year we will be selling Kim's product at the Flea Market in Grenich. We will be there all winter up until the spring. I am hoping that we will be successful there and sell lots of product. It will be very difficult to accomplish these goals but I desperately need to get all thoughts of religion totally out of my mind. I will have to figure out how to do this by trial and error but I am determined to succeed. Wish me luck.
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Hi I too have been focusing so much on bible related things and religion lately that I fear I gone too far. I have been said to have mild OCD before by doctors. Tends to be obsessive ways of thinking too. One of my concerns and obsessions was that I had or wad becoming schizohrenic as my brother was diagnosed with it. And the way I obsessed over that was a similar pattern to with religion.
I started an alpha course couple of years ago and I got into Believing in God again through that but my mind is too greedy and I'm so curious plus I doubt so much! I looked into other branches of Christianity and then Judaism plus I constantly was praying asking for signs and guidance which I started to accept where happening and for me that was the danger like knowing whether or not u are really being guided or if ur thinking is truly God inspired or imagination. It got to a point where I had an 'experience' like no other and my world changed so much. But now all I crave is a sense of being real. I want to be able to think freely again, I want me back. So I decided to not look into the different ideas of religion but just do what I have to in life and things I enjoy but always trusting that there is this ultimate forgiving good that will show truth and be good in the end.
Hi!
I too have been obsessed with philosophy and religion, always with a "why?" in my mind, almost driving me crazy and anxious. Like you I decided to stop it because religious thought is too abstract, there are no definite answers. Anyway, I stumbled upon this lecture http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WwAQqWUkpI by Dr Robert Sapolsky from Stanford University where he makes a very interesting connection between the origins of religious rituals and OCD behaviour and schyzophrenia, and talks about the fascinating case of people who suffer some sort of sporadic seizures on temporal lobe and develop the so called temporal lobe personality where one of the main caracteristics is a sudden interest and obsession on religious or philosophical questioning, no matter the age of the patient. I know it is long but it is worthwhile listening about possible biological reasons for religiosity. Since our spiritual experiences can sometimes have a pivotal and defining role in our lives it is good to know if it is just the side effect of some tumor pressing your brain.
Check it out, very enlightening and refreshing if you were obsessing like me, or suddenly wanting to become a monk or something.
If you have OCD you're going to develop obsessions but obsession with religion isn't OCD. Admit you have a mental illness, you can't relax until all your rituals are done thoroughly, that's the problem. Religion as a way to solve problems doesn't prevent mental illness, many crazy people are religious. But good luck in your spiritual journey, it's not getting out of hand, I'm obsessed with religion and I'm schizophrenic, I took the blue pill but I'm religious to be an expert in it, not some fool who doesn't know what he's doing. The ones obsessed with religion often are the ones who went to university to learn theology, these people are the experts in religion and that's OK.
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