Sunday, December 20, 2009

New Years Resolutions

This is the time of year when people start to think of New Year resolutions. I had a great and wonderful 2009 and I sincerely hope that my readers did too. I have been thinking about what I would like to accomplish in 2010. I have accomplished a lot in 2009. I am pleased and happy about what I did accomplish. I have lived the whole year in recovery and have been successful at the goals and objectives I had in 2009.

There are some things I would like to achieve this year. I would like to do more research this year than I did last year. One of things I would like to research more is the Christian Religion. Some day I would like to be a successful paid published free lance Christian writer. Another thing I would like to research more is science. I want to develop a real good working knowledge of science. Some day I would like to become a successful paid published free lance science writer. As far as my writing career these are the two subjects I want to write about.

I never had the opportunity to do any public speaking in 2009. I am hoping that this will change in the new year. I want to do a fair amount of public speaking this year. I want to share my experience, strength, and hope with others concerning my recovery from mental illness, addiction, and alcoholism. I want to share my story and give others that faith, hope, and courage that recovery is truly possible. If I can recover anybody can. I was once a hopeless, helpless, and useless human being as a result of my concurrent disorders. For many years I accomplished nothing in my life. My life was a total waste. Now things are different. I have been living in recovery and have been very successful at all my secular adventures. I have also made progress in my spiritual life as well. Things just keep getting better and better in my life. Most importantly I have found Kim my wife and we have been having a great and wonderful relationship together. Without Kim I would be like a little lost sheep in the wilderness just wandering around not knowing where I am going in life. I am living a life of meaning, purpose, and being a productive member of society. I am maintaining my marriage, working at three part time jobs, writing for my blogs and web sites, having a wonderful social life, and I play video games and go fishing for rest and relaxation. Life just couldn't get any better.

I wish my readers a great and wonderful 2010 and may you be successful at all the things you would like to accomplish in the new year. Just have faith, hope, courage, believe in yourself, and seek after recovery with your whole being. You just might find it. I have.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Merry X-mas and Happy New Year

I would like to wish all my readers and great and wonderful x-mas and a happy New Year. May your hearts be filled with much joy and happiness throughout the year. May you be successful at everything you attempt to do in 2010. I am looking forward to a great and successful new year myself. I am working on my goals and objectives that I want to achieve in 2010. I personally believe that if we fail to plan we plan to fail. I have been working on what goals and objectives I would like to achieve in my life. Short term goals (next few months), Mid term goals (next three years), and Long term goals (three to five years). I got this idea from the recovery support group put on by the Schizophrenia Society (our local Kings County Chapter). If my reader is a consumer I highly recommend that if given the opportunity take this course. You will be given a recovery workbook to work on to achieve your own personal recovery. It is full of real good information and there are questions to answer pertaining to your recovery. I haven't finished all the questions yet but I am working on it. I am going to finish all the questions and continue to go through my workbook on a regular basis. Eventually I want every available spot in my book to be filled with notes pertaining to my own personal recovery. Recovery is a journey that never ends. We need to work on our recovery continually until we leave this world. Even though I have been in recovery for about 10 years now I still learn new things about it on every new day. I never stop learning new things and I am always advancing in my recovery. I am planning on having a great and wonderful New Year and I sincerely hope that my readers will have a great and wonderful New Year as well.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Mental Illness, Addicton, and Recovery

Here is an excellent article on recovery from mental illness and addiction. It compares the system that treats addiction and the system that treats mental illness. It discusses different self-help groups that are designed to treat addiction and mental illness. It talks about the lessons learned from the addictions field to treat mental illness and the lessons learned from the mental health field to treat addiction. It is an excellent read.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Busy

Hello everyone! I have been very busy with my work and our business. I barely have any free time whatsoever. This is a blessing. There was a time when I couldn't do anything. I just drank coffee, smoked cigarettes, and paced the floor for hours and hours. When I tried to read I would only last five minutes and had to stop. When I tried to do any house work I only lasted five minutes and had to stop. Everything that I attempted to do only lasted five minutes and I had to stop. I literally done nothing for a period of 15 to 20 years. I am very grateful and thankful that I am able to do things and keep so busy that I barely have any spare time. I am living a full and productive life. I have my marriage, my work, our business, my blogs that I write for, and I play video games for R & R. Kim and I also have a great and wonderful social life. We love to have folks over to entertain. We are always having parties and people over for dinner. Kim and I also love to travel when we have the car. We often go out for dinner at fancy restaurants. I am simply enjoying life, and having a ball. I love life and I love being alive. All because of God's love, compassion, grace, and mercy He pours out blessing after blessing upon me. I am so grateful and thankful that I cannot express it in words. Recovery is truly possible. I am a living example that this is very true. I am living in recovery and I love to share my experience, strength, and hope with others to help them with their recovery and give them that faith, hope, and courage that we consumers need to carry on with life despite our mental illness. Once again recovery is truly possible and we can live lives of meaning, purpose, and become productive members of society. Good luck in your own recovery.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Countering Stigma and Discrimination

Here is the link to an article on removing the awful stigma out there in society. It is about the plan by the Mental Health Commission of Canada to counteract the stigma concerning mental illness. It is a national plan to be carried out in every province and territory in Canada.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia: Kings County Chapter Announcement

We will not be having a meeting in December this year. We will be having a get together in January with food, music, and the opportunity to socialize. When I have the details I will post them on this blog.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Christmas Oratorio

For those of you who love good classical music


Acadia School of Music presents
J.S Bach’s

Christmas Oratorio

Tickets are now on sale for the Acadia University School of Music’s production of J.S. Bach’s Christmas Oratorio at the Acadia Box Office.

Tickets can be purchased at the box office or reserved by phone by calling the box office at 542-5500 or toll free at 1-800-542-8425.

When: Sunday, November 29th, 3pm
Where: Festival Theatre Building, Acadia University
Tickets: $20 Adults / $15 Students & Seniors

This production features the Acadia University Chorusdirected by Michael Caines and the Acadia String Ensemble directed by Laura Veeze. Soloists include School of Music Voice faculty Christianne Rushton and guest soloists Susan Boddie, Ryan Billington, and Ross Thompson. The production will also feature members of Symphony Nova Scotia as well as students and faculty from the School of Music.

Kick off the holiday season this fall by experiencing this musical masterwork! One performance only – get your tickets early before they sell out!

Monday, November 23, 2009

Christmas Craft Show

Kim and I will be selling our product at this craft show.

Christmas Craft Show

Hantsport Fire Hall

December 4th 10 am - 6 pm

December 5th 10 am - 4 pm

Door Prizes Daily.

Chance to win $5.00 voucher to be spent at the craft show.

Draw for Christmas basket at the end of the show.

Come for last minute Christmas shopping and some great gift ideas.

If a crafter would like to book a table contact:

Kathleen Macdow

(902) 684-9898

The table cost $25.00 for both days.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Apology

I greatly apologize for the comment I published on my link to the CBC article on stigma. I didn't realize that the link he put on the comment was inappropriate. I tried the link myself and the web page didn't come up. When I checked it tonight it did come up. I didn't know how to delete the comment so I deleted the whole post.

I am a moral person and I think that the site that the link was to wasn't appropriate.

Once again I apologize.

Tony

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

RE: Obsessed With Religion

In a previous article I discussed my obsession with religion. I have been successful at putting all thoughts of religion out of my mind. I have not been reading about it, discussing it, or even thinking about it. I have given myself a break from it and I feel a lot better because of it. It is nice to get my obsessions with religion out of my mind for a while. It makes me feel relieved. My mind is at peace with itself. It is one thing to be religious but it is another thing to be obsessed with it.

I am seriously thinking about taking a permanent break from religion. Although I want to get away from religion it is still important to me to have some sort of spiritual beliefs and spiritual life for myself. I personally believe that it is my spiritual beliefs that have helped me recover from my mental illness, addiction, and alcoholism. Without my spiritual beliefs I would not be recovering from any of these things.

The question is: How can I still have my spiritual beliefs without becoming obsessed with religion? In my mind there is a difference between the two. A person can become spiritual without becoming overly religious. I must confess that spirituality is very important to me. Without it I would not be able to survive and live a life of meaning and purpose. There are many things that give me meaning and purpose in life. One of them is my spiritual beliefs. As human beings we need to be whole. For meaning and purpose I need my marriage, work, hobbies, spiritual beliefs, psychological stability, and emotional stability. All these different aspects of my life are important to make me a whole person. We cannot just treat part of the person we need to treat the whole person.

So, I need to figure out what spiritual beliefs I want to believe and practice in my life. I want to avoid all the dogma and doctrines of organized religion. No matter what religion it is. I personally believe that I have made the right decision concerning these matters. I am thinking about deleting all my blogs I have on religion and philosophy. Or should I just leave them there for now? I might change my mind down the road. That is one of the symptoms of OCD. Changing one's mind all the time and going round and round in circles.

For now I feel good about my decision not to give up on my spiritual beliefs but forsake the religion thing altogether. Wish me luck.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia: Kings County Chapter Meeting Announcement

Time: Wednesday November 25 2009 at 7:00 pm
Place: St. Josephs Catholic Church
Location: Belcher St. Kentville, NS.
Speaker: Jennifer Longley of Care Givers N.S. She will also be answering questions.

For more information call 678-8458

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Psychiatry: A Specialty Relegated to the Basement

Here is an eye opening article on the stigma attached to doctors that want to specialize in Psychiatry. In my opinion the stigma in the medical profession is worse than it is in the general population. This shouldn't be. My readers should read this article. I personally believe that this article is truly factual and something needs to be done to rectify this situation.

To read the article click on the link below.

Are Mental Health Professionals Immune to Stigmatizing Beliefs?

Here is an interesting article about stigma held by mental health professionals. Is stigma just found in society or is it also harbored in the minds of mental health professionals as well? I think that my readers will find this article enlightening.

To read the article click on the link below.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Today: My Official Fun Day

When I woke up this morning around 8:00 am I decided that I did not feel like doing any work today. So I didn't. Everything I did today was just pure fun. I didn't do any work whatsoever. I spent a few hours playing my Star Wars Video Game. I did some pleasure surfing. I just navigated around the net on subjects that give me fun and pleasure to read. I read some science articles on the official BBC web site. I did some research on addiction and schizophrenia. I didn't even do any writing today. I was supposed to write my first draft for an article for the CMHA Newsletter but I didn't. I will tackle that tomorrow and get it done. I did some reading on MSN about celebrities and musicians. I just had fun today. I don't know if that was the right thing to do or not but I did it anyway. This is the first time that I have ever done this. I always do a lot of work everyday. House chores, writing, working at collating, working on things for our business, and whatever else that needs to be done. I will get back at the old grind tomorrow though. Kim and I have to get up early and go to the flea market and try to sell some product. When we get back I am going to help Kim with the house chores. I will have to get my first draft done for my article for the CMHA Newsletter tomorrow. I need to work on some things for our business. I will be busy tomorrow engaging in lots of work. I really don't feel bad about taking today off though. I just needed a break from it all. I just did those things that just bring me pure fun and I had a ball doing it. I personally feel that everyone needs to take a day off from work and have some fun once in a while. If you feel all bogged down from working all the time, take a break, relax and do things just for pure fun. Set aside all that work and enjoy yourself. I am not saying that we need to do this all of the time but we all need that fun day once in a while. I am glad that I never did any work today and just did those things that bring me just pure fun. If you need to, take that break and have some fun. I did.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

New Antipsychotic Agent in the US Market

Here is an article about a new atypical anti-psychotic medication that has been approved to be used on patients. I have read the article and this new medication looks promising. Hopefully it will make it's way into the Canadian market.

To read the article click on the link below.

http://brainblogger.com/2009/09/07/new-antipsychotic-agent-in-the-us-market/

Gene Clues to Schizophrenia Risk

Here is an excellent article on the genetics of schizophrenia. We have a long ways to go to figure out all the details of the genetics of schizophrenia but progress has been made.

To read the article click on the link below.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/8128005.stm

Today's Walk

Our local Chapter of the Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia held our annual Walk the World for Schizophrenia today. We have a lot of dedicated people. It was just pouring out and we still had a very large turnout.

Kim and I arrived a hour early. Slowly people started showing up. Finally someone arrived with the key to the building. I helped with the 50/50 draw collecting the money and passing out the tickets. Kim helped put the food out for people to eat.

When it was time we all headed out for the walk. I got soaked. My feet were so wet it felt like I went wading in a swimming pool. The actual walk only lasted about an half hour. After arriving back from the walk we all started pigging out on the real good food. We also got to listen to a live blues band. The music was just great.

After awhile the draws started for the prizes that were passed out. I won a pair of mittens with the 2010 Olympics on it. After they tallied up the amount of money brought in it was good news. A fairly good chunk of money was made.

When Kim and I decided to leave we went to Port Williams to check out the Prescott House Museum. We wanted to find out where it was because we will be doing a flea market there for our business. We are hoping to make a fair amount of cash there. The flea market is October 10th this year.

All in all Kim and I had a wonderful day.

Monday, September 28, 2009

New Schizophrenia Blog

I have created a new schizophrenia blog yesterday. It is on wordpress. The name of the blog is "All About Schizophrenia."

My domain address is:

Saturday, September 26, 2009

McGill Reporter » Blog Archive » Opening a window onto the brain

At the moment, there is just empty space between two pavilions at the Douglas Mental Health University Institute. But, if everything goes according to plan - and it has to - come March 2011, one of the world’s top brain-imaging centres will open its doors on that exact spot.

To read the rest of the article click on the link below.

McGill Reporter » Blog Archive » Opening a window onto the brain

Monday, September 21, 2009

Residential centre review urged - Nova Scotia News - TheChronicleHerald.ca

Here is the link to a news article published by The Chronicle Herald. It's about doing something about the abuse going on in large residential centers. I personally feel that something should be done about this problem.

To read the article click on the link below.

Residential centre review urged - Nova Scotia News - TheChronicleHerald.ca

An Objective in Life

From the time I was fourteen years old until the year 2000 I suffered much suffering, pain, torture, and torment. Between my schizophrenia, addiction, and alcoholism I just went through living hell. In the year 2000 I started recovering from my schizophrenia, addiction, and alcoholism.

I personally believe that the reason for all that suffering was so that I could empathize with my fellow consumers, addicts, and alcoholics. I have been where they are and have been. I can share my experience, strength, and hope with them. One of my objectives in life is to do my best to help others.

I have often thought about going to University and getting official training in the mental health profession. Then getting an actual job in this field. This is not practical. It would cost too much money. It would take me too long to get my degree because I would not be able to handle a full work load. I would have to only attend part time.

So, the question is, how can I fulfill my objective in life helping others? If I cannot receive official training and actually work in the mental health field how can I help others? There is an answer to this question. MY WRITING. I have a gift for putting things down on paper. I am able to express myself better by writing than I can engaging in conversation. I can help others by continuing to write for the two newsletters I write for. I am able to help others through the articles I write for my blogs and web sites. Outside my marriage and work I have a purpose in life. Helping others.

Good luck in your own recovery.

Focus

I used to watch a show called Life in the ER. It was a non-fiction show. It was actually filmed right in the trauma center. I was watching a show one day and someone asked the Doctor in charge of the trauma center why he was so successful at his work. He said focus. When he was in school he was 100% focused on his studies. Nothing else occupied his mind. Then when it was time to actually work in the trauma center he said when he was at work he was 100% focused on his work. Nothing else occupied his mind.

I need to apply this concept to my own life. If I want to be successful at achieving my goals and objectives in life I need to become 100% focused. To succeed in my marriage I need to be 100% focused on my marriage. To have a successful and profitable business I need to be 100% focused on our business. If I am to continue to be successful at my two writing jobs and my job as a collator I need to become 100% focused. In order to continue to be successful at my writing for my blogs and web sites I need to become 100% focused. Nothing else can occupy my mind. I need to put all thoughts out of my head that don't pertain to my goals and objectives.

This is the only way that I can become successful at all my goals and objectives in life. Focus, focus, focus. I am totally determined to accomplish this in my life. I can and will succeed. Good luck in achieving your own goals and objectives in life.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Obsessed With Religion

I have a real deep interest in religion. I have been like that for many many years. I am wondering if it is getting out of hand. I am wondering if I am getting too obsessed with religion. I am wondering if my obsessive compulsive disorder is getting out of hand. I am wondering if it is my OCD that is causing me to get too obsessed with religion. It is true that it is my spiritual and religious beliefs that are responsible for my recovery from mental illness and addiction. I think that it is getting out of hand. As time goes on I seem to be getting more and more obsessed with religion. It is getting to the point that it is causing me much concern about my sanity. There is nothing wrong with religion if it doesn't take control of ones thoughts and emotions. I am starting to have a feeling of having no control over how much religion occupies my thoughts and feelings. I just can't get these thoughts of religion out of my head.

Lately I have been communicating with the Mormons. I have been doing some research on this religion. I am wondering if they are truly a cult like everyone says they are. I must confess that their religion does appeal to me but I am also having doubts whether I should believe it. I would just love to get rid of my obsessions with religion. I don't know how to accomplish this though. I think I am going to stop all reading on religion and stop discussing it with people. At least for now. I am going to try to occupy my mind with other things such as the business Kim and I have started. I want to become 100% focused on our business. I also want to continue my research on mental illness. It is one thing to believe and pray to God but it is totally another thing to become obsessed with religion. They are not the same. In fact I am thinking about putting the spiritual life out of my mind as well. Forget about even the 12 steps and anything that has a spiritual connection to it. Just put all thoughts of spirituality and religion totally out of my mind. I think that this is necessary if I am going to get back my sanity concerning this problem. My sanity is important to me. I will try my very best to successfully get rid of all thoughts about religion. I personally feel that this is necessary concerning where I am at right now in my life. I have more important things to think about and accomplish in my life right now. I have a wonderful relationship with my wife. I have two writing jobs. I have another part time job being a collator. Kim and I have our business to attend to at the present moment. In fact starting October 4th this year we will be selling Kim's product at the Flea Market in Grenich. We will be there all winter up until the spring. I am hoping that we will be successful there and sell lots of product. It will be very difficult to accomplish these goals but I desperately need to get all thoughts of religion totally out of my mind. I will have to figure out how to do this by trial and error but I am determined to succeed. Wish me luck.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Schizophrenia and Smoking

Smoking is a real major problem for mental health consumers. I have done some research on this topic. Scientists suspect a breakdown in the bio-chemistry of the brain causes schizophrenia. They suspect the dopamine system. There is to much dopamine. When this neurotransmitter picks up the message from the brain cell and carries it to another it doesn't bind properly to the receptors. As a result of this the messages get all mixed up. This is what causes the symptoms such as hallucinations, delusions, and disorganized thinking.

According to research being done on how smoking affects those with schizophrenia. Nicotine binds to the dopamine and does something to this system. The affects of the nicotine creates a positive reaction. The nicotine actually improves the cognitive functioning of those with schizophrenia. It also improves the psychological and emotional functioning of consumers. It plainly makes a person have positive psychological and emotional experiences. It creates a sense of well being for the person smoking tobacco.

This is why so many consumers smoke. Very few people are able to actually quit. As a result of the benefits of the way nicotine affects the dopamine system it next to impossible to quit. I was talking to a scientist once and asked him if he had done any research on smoking. He said yes. I also asked him if it was possible for me to quit. He said I would need to be on the patch, receive intensive psychotherapy seven days a week. He said that the odds of quitting was next to impossible even with the prescribed treatment he informed me about.

Within the last nine years I have tried to quit several times. I was not successful. In fact when I tried to quit on a work day I just couldn't function. I wasn't able to do my job. My boss had to send me home. She told me to stop at the store and pick up some tobacco on the way home. She knew that I would never be able to quit. I want to quit so bad I can taste it but I have doubts that I will succeed. Maybe some day. That will be a long long ways down the road. No one has to tell me that smoking is not good on ones physical health. I know that I can develop life threatening diseases that could kill me. Even though I know these facts I still have no psychological power to quit and stay quit. One cannot quit on will power. If you are a consumer that smokes don't get all in a dither. It's better to have good mental health and live a satisfying life even though that life is shortened as a result of smoking.

I look at it this way. If nicotine and caffeine are my only vices in life I have nothing to worry about. If you compare this vice with vices I have had in the past they are nothing. I have nothing to worry about even though I smoke. I would rather live a short good quality life than be around a long time but have a poor quality life. I am totally satisfied with my life and I don't have to quit smoking to make it better. Life is wonderful and I love life. Psychologically and emotionally it couldn't get any better.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Presentation

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia Twenty-First Annual Conference

MAIN THEME

MENTAL ILLNESS AND THE CRIMINAL JUSTICE SYSTEM

Thursday, October 1st. 2009
8:45 am to 4:15 pm

Ashley Lounge, Sea King Club
Warrior Avenue, Building 242, 12 Wing Shearwater, Shearwater, Nova Scotia.

Registration Table opens at 8:00 am. Parking is Free.

Registration (includes lunch and nutrition breaks)

COST

General: $130
SSNS Members: $80
Students: $40
Individuals living with a mental illness: $5

Please make cheques payable to the
Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia

Telephone registration and payment by Visa or Master Card is available by calling
1-800-465-2601 (toll free in Nova Scotia)



Walk The World For Schizophrenia 2009

Our local Kings County Chapter of the Schizophrenia Society of Nova Scotia is holding our annual walk.

Please Join Our Walk in Support of Those With Schizophrenia

SUNDAY, OCTOBER 4, 2009 - 1:00 pm.
ROBIE TUFTS PARK, FRONT STREET. WOLFVILLE

Our walk will begin from the park on Front St. - down Main St. - & back to the Lions Hall for food, music, and prizes.

Your participation will help us to alleviate the 'stigma' & suffering endured by those who are affected by, or living with schizophrenia.

For a pledge sheet
- call Sarah-Ann 902-791-0907 or Pat 902-678-8458

(you may also register your donation at the walk)

Schizophrenia Video

Monday, September 14, 2009

BBC NEWS | Health | Dispute over schizophrenia drugs

Here is a controversial article about whether the new a-typical drugs are superior over the older neurolyptics. Personally I believe that the newer drugs are more effective. I suffered for long term chronic mental illness for approximately 20 years or more. I was tried on several medications and they did not work. I did not start to recover from my psychotic symptoms until I was put on clozapine. I was put on olanzapine once. It worked for about four months then I took ill again. Read the article and decide for yourself whether you agree with it or not.

BBC NEWS | Health | Dispute over schizophrenia drugs

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Friday, September 11, 2009

Schizophrenia Rehabilitation - Introduction

Here are some good articles on rehabilitation. It has an introduction, a section on medical care, entitlements, daily living skills, vocational rehabilitation, education, conclusion, and references.

To read the articles click on the link below.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Beacon for troubled daughter - Nova Scotia News - TheChronicleHerald.ca

Here is an article about the new housing project in Dartmouth for the mentally ill. This project is definitely a step in the right direction. The project was put on hold by the Conservatives but the NDP decided to carry through with it. Thank goodness.

To read the article click on the link below.

Beacon for troubled daughter - Nova Scotia News - TheChronicleHerald.ca

Bed closures sent 'chill through my bones'

Here is a news article by Austin Mardon. It's about his reaction to proposed bed closures at the Alberta Hospital. The mentally ill have no place to go for treatment due to lack of psychiatric beds. This article is an eye opener.

To read the article click on the link below.

Bed closures sent 'chill through my bones'

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Doubt cast on cannabis, schizophrenia link

The research article this link links to proposes that there is no connection between cannabis and schizophrenia. There is much research that proposes that there is a link. This particular research has no hard facts to prove what they are proposing. Read it for yourself and decide whether you agree with this research or not.

To read the article click on the link below.

Doubt cast on cannabis, schizophrenia link

Writers Block

I haven't been doing much writing lately on any of my blogs. I have written a couple of things but that is all. I am suffering from terrible writers block. I have also been sick for a few days. I went to the Doctor last night. I have a viral infection in my chest. The doctor gave me a puffer to use to help clear up my lungs.

At this very moment I am listening to a classical online radio station trying to think of something to write about. I am just free writing. I am writing down whatever just pops into my head.

There are times when I am able to accomplish a lot but there are times when I don't accomplish much. I am going through a period right now where I haven't been accomplishing much. I don't like being in that state of mind. I am the type of person that needs to be always doing something. I don't like sitting around doing nothing. When I am in that state of mind I don't like my life and I don't life myself either. Even though I am recovering very well from my illness's and addiction I still have bad periods in my life. Things cannot be perfect all of the time.

I must say though that 90% of the time I am sitting right on top of the world but 10% of the time I am in a bad state of mind. When I was ill it was the opposite. 10% of the time I wasn't feeling all that bad but 90% of the time I was in a state of pain, suffering, torture, and torment. I am just so grateful that things have turned around for me. I am so grateful and thankful for the way my life is right now I cannot express it in words.

I am hoping that I can climb out the doldrums and get busy achieving my goals and objectives in life. I want to get busy again. There is an expression. When it's all over all that matters is what you have done. I want to get down to business and start doing things again. When I pass on from this life I want to leave a legacy behind me of things that I have done. I still need time out though for rest and relaxation. We all need that time out to get alone with ourselves and get away from all the hassles of life. We all need a break sometimes. I have had people call me a workaholic. I don't think that I am, in fact I feel that I don't do enough. I have a desire to accomplish a lot more in my life than I have up to this moment. I am just a go-getter and don't like to be idle. When I was ill I wasn't able to accomplish anything. For 20 or more years I did absolutely nothing. Never accomplished much. Now I am and I am grateful and thankful for it. In fact I have done more in the last nine years or so than I have during all that time before I took ill with schizophrenia. When I look back with hindsight I started taking ill when I was about 14 years old. From that time right up until February 2000 my life has been nothing but a living hell. Now my life is the complete opposite. I am living in heaven and the state of living in hell is far behind me thanks to medication, psycho-social treatments, and God's direct intervention in my life. I am recovering from my schizophrenia, obsessive compulsive disorder, addiction, and alcoholism. Concerning life right now I am just having a ball. My life is full of happiness, joy, peace of mind, and I also feel good about the fact that I am accomplishing things in life. I have done things and will continue to do things for the rest of my life. I just hope that I will not have any more relapses of my illness's. I believe that if I stay on my meds and take them faithfully I will not have any more relapses. A relapse would be very devastating for me. I just hope that I don't have any.

Bye for now.

Good luck in your own recovery.

Monday, August 31, 2009

The Mental Health Court: A Personal Response

I personally feel that the Nova Scotia Government is taking a step in the right direction.

One of the symptoms of schizophrenia, which affects approximately 50% of the people with the illness, is that they do not have insight into their illness. The person does not believe that they are ill. As a result of this they will not seek treatment and will refuse treatment if it is offered to them.

When this is the case they are in a state of psychosis. Sometimes as a result of their psychosis they break the law. Some of the crimes are trivial and some of them are very serious.

The question is: If a person commits a crime as a result of their psychosis, are they responsible for that crime? Some say yes and there are some who say no. If a person, for example, is hearing voices from God telling him to commit a serious crime, and he really believes these voices and commits the crime, is he responsible? If the person is brought to trial and found guilty should he spend years in prison with hard core criminals? If a person is sent to prison he may not receive any treatment for his illness. He would have to live in prison and at the same time live in a state of psychosis. Does a person with schizophrenia deserve to suffer for years for a crime that was committed while in a state of psychosis? In my mind, no.

This is why we need a mental health court, to help those who commit crimes while in a state of psychosis and to see to it that they receive treatment for their illness. They are not criminals. They do not make that conscious decision while in their right minds. They deserve compassion and mercy. Once they get well then they will personally have to deal with what they have done.

I believe that this mental health court will determine whether someone was in a state of psychosis when the crime was committed and will see to it that the person will not be put in prison but will receive treatment for their illness. Hopefully, the treatment given to them will help them to recover from their illness and allow them to become productive members of society and live a life of meaning and purpose, perhaps even work and pay taxes. A recovering consumer can contribute much to society. If someone is put in prison for a crime committed in a state of psychosis it would definitely be a totally wasted life. The person might as well be dead. Living in prison in a state of psychosis would be a living death, physically alive but mentally and emotionally dead.

Mental health consumers need to be shown mercy, not punishment, when a crime is committed while in a state of psychosis.









Saturday, August 29, 2009

N.S. mental health court to open in November

From CBCnews.ca

Nova Scotia's special court designed for people with mental illness who come into conflict with the law will open this fall.

The mental health court, to sit once a week in Dartmouth starting Nov. 2, will divert some people away from the criminal justice system and into treatment programs.

Attorney General and Justice Minister Ross Landry said the court will examine the accused and their illnesses, not just their alleged crimes.

To read more click on the link below

N.S. mental health court to open in November

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Mental Health Court

The province's first court to help people with mental

health illnesses will open in Dartmouth on November 2nd.

The court was set up to help people who are in greater

need of counselling and treatment instead of being held in

custody or put in situations that may lead to confrontations.

Attorney General and Justice Minister Ross Landry says

the government is seeking new ways to help those offenders who

have mental health issues.

He says this court will look at the person and their

illness, not just their crime when it comes to administering

justice.

The court will sit one day a week at the provincial court

building.

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Media Contact: Sherri Aikenhead
Department of Justice
902-424-3313
E-mail: aikenhsl@gov.ns.ca

Sunday, August 16, 2009

CAMH:About Mental Health and Addiction

About Mental Health and Addictions

This section will provide you with concise information about addictions and mental health issues. Whether you are an individual looking for a fact sheet on bipolar disorder, a parent concerned about drug use, or a service provider hoping to find resources in another language, you should find

To read more click on the link below

CAMH:About Mental Health and Addiction

Psychology | Biological Explanations of Schizophrenia - The dopamine hypothesis | Psychopathology | Individual Differences

The dopamine hypothesis suggests that dopamine over-activity causes schizophrenia. Dopamine over-activity could happen in one of the following ways:

To read more click on the link below.

Psychology | Biological Explanations of Schizophrenia - The dopamine hypothesis | Psychopathology | Individual Differences

Schizophrenia Treatment - Medications

Here is the link to Psych Central. This is an excellent site giving information on mental illness. The particular link below is an article on treatment for schizophrenia beginning with medication. There are two more parts to the treatment section. I think that you will find this site a good read and very informative.

Schizophrenia Treatment - Medications

Saturday, August 15, 2009

CPA - Canadian Psychiatric Association / APC - l'Association des psychiatres du Canada

Here is the link to the official site of the Canadian Psychiatric Association. You will find a lot of good information concerning psychiatry. If you check out this site I don't think that you will be disappointed.

CPA - Canadian Psychiatric Association / APC - l'Association des psychiatres du Canada

Monday, August 3, 2009

Subject Matter

Since I have started this blog I have written 113 articles. I am running out of things to write about. I haven't written much on my blogs lately. I have been having writers block. I just cannot think of anything to write about. I do not just have this blog to write for. I have several blogs. I try to write most of my articles on recovery. Recovery is truly possible. I suffered for over 20 years from long term chronic mental illness. Since I went to the Beacon Unit at the rehab in Waterville I have been recovering. Dr. Muhall found the right medication. The medication I am on now works. Plus I received psycho-social treatments while living on the Beacon Unit. Another part of my recovery is my spiritual beliefs. Even though I have received much help from the mental health profession I personally believe that 99% of my recovery I had to figure out for myself. My recovery is due to much hard work on my part. I am the one responsible for my recovery, not other people. I can have guidance and direction from others but I am the one that has to do all the hard work to recover. We cannot depend on others for our recovery. We can only depend on ourselves. If we depend on others for our recovery we will not recover. In order to recover it takes determination, motivation, and discipline on our part. Even though I have been in recovery for almost 10 years I still need to work on it now and for the rest of my life. If I stop working on my recovery I will probably have a relapse. It is a continual battle until the day that I pass on from this life. I am engaged in warfare. I am continually fighting for my recovery. If I stop fighting then I will stop recovering. The battle for recovery will rage on until that day. It is a never ending war. I am prepared to continue the battle because I do not want to go back to that living hell again. Living in psychosis and suffering from the negative symptoms is a living hell. I have been living in that hell for many many years. I can say gratefully that the hell is over. I have climbed out of that awful pit and out into the sunshine. I am living above ground now. I just hope that those of you who have a mental illness will find the precious gift of recovery. If I can find recovery I think that almost anyone can. Although for some recovery is never possible. There is a certain percentage of those with mental illness who will never recover regardless of what kind of treatment they receive. I just hope that you will be one of the ones that will recover. If you want to recover be prepared to engage in a terrible war. The battle is hard and difficult. If a person never gives up and continues to fight victory is truly possible. Be a good soldier and fight for that precious gift of recovery. My heart goes out to you. Have FAITH, HOPE, AND COURAGE and seek after recovery with your whole being. You just might get lucky and find it.


Sunday, July 19, 2009

A Wonderful Vacation

Kim and I decided to take a vacation this summer. We didn't take one last summer. We went away for our vacation. We had a wonderful time. We went to Sackville NB so I could buy tobacco. By going over there I saved $40 on what I bought. Tobacco is a lot cheaper over there.

We went to PEI with our family. We caught the ferry at Caribou and landed on the Island at Wood Islands. Then we proceeded on to Cavendish and stopped for a meal at a Seafood Restaurant. After that we went to Ann of Green Gables. It was wonderful in there. We watched a video there. Then we checked out the house. It had all the original furniture and other original items in it.

We also hiked the trail there. It was a beautiful place. There were flowing brooks, lots of woods, wooden bridges to cross, lovely green fields, and we saw lots of birds there. This would be a great place to get in touch with nature.

On the way out we stopped at the gift shop. My brother bought Kim some Ann of Green Gables books. Mom bought Kim an Ann of Green Gables movie and bought me a PEI ball cap. Mom and my brother bought things for themselves too.

When we left there we headed towards the Confederation Bridge. We stopped at the village just before the bridge. We all had ice cream and Mom bought a few more items to take home with us.

Later, after we got off the bridge we stopped at Port Elgin where my Dad was born and raised. He wanted to show Kim where he was born and raised. Eventually we arrived home. Kim and I were tired so we went right to bed when we got home at Mom and Dad's.

The next day my brother, Kim, and I went for a trip through the mountains Advocate way. We stopped at the Provincial Park near Advocate Harbour. We continued on from there until we came out at Joggins then proceeded home to Mom and Dad's.

When we got back Kim and I headed off to Wallace to visit a good friend of ours. We visited for a hour then headed back to Mom's.

Yesterday we took a trip to Moncton, NB. We headed off to Cora's first for a meal. The meal was great. Then we proceeded to the mall in Dieppe. After that we went to Cosco's up near Mountain Road. Mom bought a few things for herself and a few things for Kim and I. We were going to go to the zoo but it was raining so we never made it there.

On the way home to Mom's we stopped to pick up some pizza for supper. When we made it home we all pigged out on pizza and garlic fingers. Kim and I went to bed early because we wanted to get on the road early to head back home to Kentville.

We left early this morning and had a wonderful trip home. We stopped at Masstown to eat and pick up some baked goods. Finally we arrived home. We got in around 3:00 pm this afternoon. Kim and I had a great and wonderful vacation this summer.

Now that our vacation is over we have to get back to the old grind (work). Even though work is work we both still love working. It gives us meaning and purpose in life and also puts a bit of money in our pockets.

I am just glad that I am recovering from mental illness and addiction. If it wasn't for my recovery I would not have been able to go on a vacation and if I did go on one I would not have been able to enjoy it. Through recovery I can have fun and enjoy life. Concerning life I am having a ball. I love life and I love being alive.

I leave my blessing with you and hope that you too will find recovery and have a ball in life just like I am. Good luck in your own recovery.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

My Objective In Life

I am an intellectual type person. I like to do research and get knowledge. For the past few years I have been racking my brains trying to figure out what subject I would like to focus on for my research. I am interested in schizophrenia, other types of mental illness, addiction, alcoholism, and Christianity. These are my main interests.

Kim and I have started up a business. It is in the early stages at the present moment. I have made my decision as to what to devote most of my time researching. Business. I want to learn how to manage a business, how to draw up a solid financial plan, marketing plan, how to do the bookkeeping, and any other types of business knowledge that I need to know. I am going to spend most of my time devoted to researching business.

I am still going to keep my jobs I presently hold down. I will also continue to write for my blogs and websites. I will do the necessary research I need to do for my writing. I still have a passion for writing and getting the word out there concerning mental illness, addiction, alcoholism, and my Christian beliefs.

Concerning our business it is doing quite well considering we are just getting started. We sell Kim's blankets at Apple Wicks in Wolfville, her scarves in the fall at Rainbow Stitches in New Minas, her blankets and scarves at Fisher, Sheffield and Company in Canning, and Lee's Creative Activities in Canning, and her blankets at the Canteen and Gift Shop at the beach in Kingsport. We also sell them out of our house by word of mouth. In fact most of our sales have been as a result of telling people about our product. Some people buy them and some even put in orders for products that haven't even been made yet.

Our ultimate objective is to own our own physical store to sell crafts and products that other people make. We will also continue to sell Kim's products as well. This is a long ways down the road though.

We are also looking into selling our product at Farm Markets and Flea Markets. We had a table at the Farm Market located at Center Square in downtown Kentville. We did quite well there. We will be going there again in the fall sometime. We are making plans to do other Farm Markets and Flea Markets as well.

We are hoping that some day down the line that our business will generate enough profit to be able to live off our business. That probably will not happen for approximately five years or more. It takes that long for a business to get off the ground and start to turn a profit. We are patient though. We are willing to wait that long to generate profit. Meanwhile all our profit is going to be pumped back into the business.


Sunday, June 21, 2009

What is Recovery All About?

Just what is recovery all about? For me recovery is about living life to the fullest. Enjoying life and having fun. It is also about being successful at achieving my goals and objectives in life. Sometimes I live on the spur of the moment but I also have to have everyday all planned out what I am going to do that day. There is a saying: "if you fail to plan then you plan to fail." Sometimes though I just go with the flow and just do whatever happens to pop up in life. Either way I do my best just to have fun. That's what life is all about. Having a ball.

When I go to work I simply enjoy what I am doing. I love working. There was a time when I wasn't able to work. For me now working is just something I do to have fun yet make money at the same time. I would only do a job that I enjoy doing. I would never keep a job that I didn't like. We spend a great portion of our time working and I would not spend that time living in misery doing something that I hated. I presently hold down four part time jobs. Two are writing jobs, one is putting flyers together, and the other is working the store in Canning.

I also have fun writing for all my blogs and web sites. I love the very act of writing. I enjoy putting down my thoughts on paper (now the computer). I love sharing my knowledge with others. I enjoy sharing my experience, strength, and hope with others. One of the purposes for my writing is helping my fellow man. I like to write about things that would be helpful to others to help them in their own path in life.

I also enjoy helping Kim with the house chores and cooking. We both love cooking and often we cook together. Kim and I do a lot of baking as well. Often we make fancy and special meals. We like variety in our diet and we have a knack turning plain meals into something special. We both love food and we both enjoy eating.

Another thing that we love to do together is fishing. We just started fishing last summer. Before that I think the last time I went fishing was when I was around 19 years old. When we go fishing both of us just have a ball. Fishing is just plain fun. It's even funner when we catch something. Kim and I both love eating fish. That is one our main staples in life. We eat all kinds of fish. Trout, salmon, catfish, perch, bass, Arctic char, halibut, haddock, sole, and many others.

When we have the car we love to travel. We go to Digby to visit Kim's Aunt Marie. Of course we eat out along the way. Like I said earlier we love food and we love eating good food. Last year we went to Lunenburg and Mahone Bay. Truro is another destination when we travel. We try to travel as much as possible.

Another thing is that we like to go to the festivities happening in our area. We go to rock concerts, fire works, we eat out in fancy restaurants as much as possible. Sometimes we go to the parade at Apple Blossom. We go to the zoo when we have the opportunity. There is one close by to where we live. While we travel Kim loves to go the stores and shop. We simply have fun.

I just love playing computer games. My favorite games are war games. One game I have I get to run tanks, half-tracks, warplanes, infantry men, battle ships, anti-aircraft guns, big shore guns to sink big warships and other war vehicles as well. I must confess that I am not very good at playing war games but I still have a ball playing them. Although I am getting better and better at it the more I play.

Doing research is another passion I have in life. I spend a lot of my spare time doing this. I read books and get a lot of information off of the net. I do research on different types of mental illness, addiction, alcoholism, Christianity, and sometimes philosophy. Sometimes I do research on Church History and other types of history. I even do some research on science. Pure science that is. I don't believe in evolution. As far as I am concerned when science teaches evolution that is what the Bible calls, "science falsely so called."

Another thing Kim and I love is music. We have our music on from the time we wake up until we go to bed. I listen to online radio stations as I do my research and writing. When it comes to music I am quite eclectic. I love hard rock, soft rock, rhythm and blues, jazz, country, folk music, celtic music, classical music, opera, Christmas music, and gospel music. The only music I do not like is rap. The lyrics are just to disgusting. I love the music though. I have a belief that "music is good for the soul." Music gives me pleasure in life.

One thing that we really love to do is entertain. We are always having people over for meals and socialization. Parties are a common thing around here. Sometimes up to 20 people fill up our house when we are throwing a party. As far as I am concerned there is nothing more pleasurable that socializing around the table eating a good meal. I get much satisfaction out of this activity. I enjoy every minute of it.

Another important part of my life is Kim. Without her I would be like a little lost sheep in the wilderness. She is my lover, companion, and best friend. We are also having a wonderful relationship together. We love each other very much and we both prove it by the way we treat each other. I treat her like a queen and she treats me like a king. We very seldom get into arguments or fights. We show much respect towards each other. Another thing is that neither one of us are jealous. I trust her and she trusts me. There is nothing to be jealous about. I am just glad that Kim and I have found each other. I am so grateful and thankful that I cannot put it into words.

Overall, I love life, I love being alive, and I do my best to live the fullest life possible.

Good luck in your own recovery.


Sunday, June 14, 2009

What Expert Do We Believe?

I personally do a lot of research. I seek out knowledge on different topics. Mental illness, addiction, alcoholism, Christianity and other topics as well. I find that it doesn't matter what subject I am researching I find that for every expert that says one thing there is another expert that says the complete opposite. Both experts give solid, dependable, and reliable evidence to back up what they are saying. So, here you have it, two experts giving solid evidence to back up what they are saying, which is the complete opposite of one another. Two opposing concepts which both parties are saying are the facts and these facts are the ultimate truth. How can you have two opposing truths? Both cannot be right. One of them must be wrong.

The question of the matter is: Which expert do we believe? Both give good solid, dependable, reliable evidence to back up what they are proclaiming. How do we determine which expert is correct? Which expert is presenting the truth unto us? Which expert is totally wrong and giving us false information? Both experts cannot be right. One of them must be wrong. These are questions in my own mind that I do not know the answer to. What personal guidelines should I use in determining what position I should take concerning the matter at hand? How do I come to a decision on which position I should believe? Anyone is capable of being subjective. How do I objectively determine which concept is the correct one to believe? How do I know that I am not being subjective but being objective in my examination of the two opposing concepts I am considering? Objectivity is the best way to go. How do we figure out how to be totally objective? How do we determine that we are being objective? We live in such a subjective world is it even possible to be objective? Can a person be totally objective in examining two opposing concepts? Some people like to think that they are being objective but in reality they are more subjective than the rest of their fellows.

These are important questions that we need to ask ourselves. Are there any solid, dependable, reliable answers to these questions? Can we train ourselves to be objective instead of subjective? Is that truly possible? If any of my readers have any answers to these questions please leave your comments on this blog entry. I would greatly appreciate it.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Election Results

Election day is over. I am very pleased about the results. NDP got a majority government. They got 31 seats, the Liberals 11, and the PC's 10. I had a inkling that they would win but I didn't think that they would take it by storm the way they did.

I just hope that they will be successful at cleaning up the mess that the PC's left behind. I think they will. I have confidence that the NDP will do an excellent job at running Nova Scotia. The PC's played dirty in the election campaign but that didn't stop the NDP from winning. People are getting tired of the screw ups by the PC's and Liberals over the years. I personally feel that the NDP will take charge of the situation and clean up the mess.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Discussion Board

Hello Everyone! I have discovered a discussion forum on schizophrenia.com. Anyone can join and its free. They have different sections on it. Some are for consumers, family and friends of consumers and many more. I joined it today. I left an entry on it with the purpose of introducing myself to the forum. I have gotten three replies already. They were encouraging words that they left on my thread. I think that I am glad that I joined this forum. If you are a consumer looking for other people to talk to that are going through the same thing that you are this is a great place to do so. If you are a family member or friend of a consumer looking for other people to talk to going through the same thing that you are this is a great place to do so. You can access the forum right on the schizophrenia.com home page.

Here is the link to the home page.

http://www.schizophrenia.com/

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Confused

I am confused about something. I am not afraid to shout my opinion out at the world concerning mental illness, addiction, and alcoholism. I am not afraid to tell people about these three subjects. My purpose in doing so is to help the mental health community. Another purpose is to educate society about mental illness with the purpose of stamping out that awful stigma that society has towards those with a mental illness. When it comes to this I am totally fearless and courageous.

Another thing that I am not afraid to shout out at the world is my political opinions. I am not afraid to tell people who I am voting for and try to persuade others to vote for the same party. It is election time in Nova Scotia again and I have been putting entries on my blog about who I vote for and why my readers should vote for the same party. In fact Kim and I have a sign on our front yard for Jim Morton and the NDP. When it comes to political things I am fearless and courageous concerning shouting out my political opinions at the world.

The thing that I am confused about is this: Why am I afraid and a coward when it comes to shouting out my opinions at the world concerning my religious beliefs? For some reason I am afraid and a coward when it comes to sharing what I believe concerning the gospel of Christ and the Christian faith. I don't know why. I believe what I believe and I should be fearless and courageous in sharing it with the rest of the world. I am when it comes to everything else I believe in strongly. I personally believe that God has saved my soul and has given me eternal life and I should be willing to shout it out at the world. The apostle Paul stated in the Bible: "I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God unto salvation, to everyone that believeth, to the Jew first and also to the Greek." Why am I afraid? Don't know.

I just wanted to share this with my readers. I am not afraid and a coward when it comes to sharing what I believe concerning mental illness, addiction, alcoholism, and politics but I am afraid and a coward when it comes to sharing my religious beliefs. I truly do not know why. I am hoping that some day God will remove my fear and cowardliness and make me fearless and courageous in shouting out at the world what I personally believe about the Christian faith.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

A Good Time

Kim and I had a wonderful time yesterday. First of all I went to work at CMHA at 9:30 am. I spent a couple hours doing research for a future article. Kim and our support worker picked me up when I was finished.

Then at 12:30 we went to Canning for a retirement party for one of the members of CAPRE. We had a great time there. They served food and drink. They had a few musicians there. There was someone playing the violin, recorder, and a guitar. The music was great. At 4:00 we called a cab and went home.

At 5:30 we called up a cab and went to Swiss Chalet for a meal. I forget what the meal was called but it was delicious. It had chicken, green, yellow, and red peppers in it. There were other veggies on it too. It was wrapped up in flour tortilla bread. We also had poutine with it. We just took our time and enjoyed the meal.

After the meal was over we went to Tim Horton's at the mall. We sat there for about an hour. Then we went to the Kim Mitchell concert. There were two bands that opened for him. They were pretty good. I enjoyed their music. Finally Kim Mitchell came on stage. Did he ever have the place rockin. The music was awesome.

Kim calls up the local radio station quite often. She talks to Kate and Collin. Kim got to meet them last night at the concert. She was glad to meet them. They were glad to meet her. Both of them really liked her in person. Kim liked them in person too.

While I was there at the concert my heart was filled with thanksgiving and gratefulness. Everyone around me was drinking. Here I was at this concert watching everyone drink clean and sober. I was there without using actually enjoying the music. I can enjoy the music better clean and sober than I can when stoned and drunk. I was so pleased about the situation I cannot put it into words.

While there though Kim started taking sick. Her allergies were acting up. So we had to leave the concert and hour early. We went to Boston Pizza and called a cab. We had to wait a while for the cab. They were really busy because this week is Apple Blossom. There are a lot of festivities going on for Apple Blossom. That is why Kim Mitchell was playing here.

Finally we made it home. I had a coffee, took my meds, then went to bed. We got up around 11:00 am this morning. I was able to get up this morning without a hang over. That is a great feeling to wake up this way. Today Kim and I are going to bake some cookies and blueberry muffins. After that is done I am going to do some research today. I will also probably play my computer war game today sometime.

It is great to be clean and sober, recovering from my schizophrenia, and my OCD. I can actually enjoy life and have a good time in life. I just love life and love being alive. I can live a life of meaning and purpose. I am a productive member of society. All in all I am just living a wonderful life. I don't know if things can get any better.

For my readers who are consumers I wish you a great and successful recovery.

Bye for now.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Busy

I am going to be a busy man. Once our store gets started up I will be working long hours. I will probably be working the store 10 hours a day. I am not going to give up my writing jobs either. I will have to find time for my writing jobs. I will also have to find time to continue writing for my blogs I have on the net. I also need to find time to continue with my research. I do a lot of research on schizophrenia, addiction, alcoholism, and Christianity. I have the passion to get knowledge. There is a saying, "knowledge is power." Especially if it is the right kind of knowledge. I am a intellectual type person. I would rather do research on the afore mentioned topics than read a novel. I personally believe that reading novels is a waste of time. Reading up on schizophrenia, addiction, alcoholism, and Christianity is not a waste of time. Getting knowledge is very important to me. If it was practical I would go to university and stay there long enough to get my PHD. It is not practical though. It would take me over 12 years to get my PHD. By the time I graduate it will be to late for me to acquire work in my field of study. I would also owe the government thousands of dollars. I would have to get student loans to pay for my education. So, I have decided to get knowledge on my own. Being self taught is just as good as being taught by a professor. In fact I could probably learn more on my own than I could in university. I get to study what I want to study not what my professors want me to study. I can pick my own works to study. I can study what I personally feel is the most important thing to study. In other words being self taught is the best way to go. I also have enough self-esteem to believe that I am capable of learning just as much as someone getting their PHD. There was a time when my self-esteem was zero. I am on the journey to recovery and I am grateful and thankful unto God that I am recovering. I am only recovering because of God's Divine Providence and Intervention. I owe my whole recovery to God. He did through medicine, psychology, and spiritual interventions. I am so grateful and thankful that I am not able to put it into words.

Bye for now.

Good luck in your own recovery.


Things Are Happening

Things are happening for Kim and I. If everything goes according to plan Kim and I will have our own retail store by the end of October this year. The store will be located on Commercial Street in New Minas. This is the main drag. We have chosen this street because we believe that we would get more customers in our store than if the business was located off the beaten path.

We will be selling the scarves, blankets, and cat toys that Kim makes herself. We will be also selling items that other people make as well on consignment. We will be selling other products as well such as craft supplies, Christmas ornaments, all year round ornaments, crystal ornaments, Disney products, bird houses, bird feeders, cook books, homemade quilts, ball caps, homemade phone book covers, homemade dish cloths, and many other products.

Kim and I have changed the name of our business. It was "Kims Crafts." Now it is "Kim Tony and Company." The reason for the name change is because we have decided to sell other products besides crafts.

We have been receiving help from the Entrepreneurs with Disabilities Network and CAPRE. Both of these organizations help people with disabilities start up and maintain a business. Both have been a great help to us. They are teaching us all the necessary skills we need to start up and maintain our business.

Kim and I are really excited about the whole thing. We are aware of and know that this endeavor is going to take a lot of hard work. Despite that we are looking forward to having a ball with this project. By having our own business we will be our own bosses. We can buy and sell what we want to. We will have control over who works for us. Most of all Kim and I both love working with people and helping people. Having our own business will give us the opportunity to do this.

Here is the link to our business blog

http://kimscrafts-kim.blogspot.com/

Here is the link to the EDN website.

http://www.ednns.ca/ab_mission.php

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Video Interveiw With Jim Morton, NDP Candidate Kings North

Hello Everyone. Here is the link to a video interview with NDP Candidate Jim Morton for Kings North.

novanewsnow.com > County of Kings > Candidate Profile, 2009 Provincial Election

NDP - Jim Morton - Meet Your Candidate

It's election time again. Here is the web page for Jim Morton our local candidate for Kings North.

NDP - Jim Morton - Meet Your Candidate

NDP - Darrell Dexter - A Better Deal

It's election time again. Here is the link to the NDP web site.

NDP - Darrell Dexter - A Better Deal

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Election Time Again

It is election time again in Nova Scotia. We are voting to see who is going to be our Premier. I am voting for the NDP. I personally feel that they are in politics for the people and will do their best to do what is beneficial for the people. Most politicians do what benefits them the most not what benefits the people. I personally believe that the NDP will do their very best to do what's in the best interest for society. Not just certain parts of society but all society. They will try to solve the economic situation we are in at the present moment. They will try to alleviate poverty in our Province. They will try to improve the health care system and cut down on waiting times. They will try to create jobs and keep the young people in Nova Scotia. At the present moment a lot of young people have to move away just to find a half decent job. They will also do what they can to improve the environment. Overall I believe that everyone should vote NDP. In the past the Liberals or the PC's haven't done much to improve the quality of life for all society. Including the poor. We need a change. That change is the NDP.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Research, Study and Writing

I have decided to advance further in my writing career. I want to become a successful, paid, published, free lance writer. I have been giving a lot of serious thought as to what field I want to research, study, and write about.

I have been seriously considering becoming a science writer. In school I never got past grade nine. As a result of this I never got training in the basic science concepts of high school. So I am thinking about researching and studying the basics I missed in high school. Once I master the basics then I will advance my studies further. I've decided to specialize in scientific research being done on mental illness, addiction, and alcoholism. Once I develop a real good working knowledge on these topics then I will start writing on them and seek to get my works published. I will start finding scientists to interview for my stories.

I have a keen interest in science and mathematics. These were my favorite subjects in school and I made my best marks in these subjects. The decision I made concerning what to write about is based on my passion for math and science. Even though I have no formal training in math and science I am quite capable of teaching myself on these topics. I believe that I can learn just as much as a university student. I will just be teaching myself instead of being taught by a professor.

Before I actually start writing for publication I want to do much research and study first. I believe that a writer needs a real good working knowledge on their subject before they start writing. The editors can tell if you know your subject or not. If the editors think that you don't know your subject very well they will not publish your work. I am going to give myself a year or two before I start submitting works to be published. I am going to start a science blog though and write for that for practice and to develop my science writing skills. I have never written anything on science so I will need to develop the necessary skills to write about this topic. I just thrive on challenges. I am looking forward to mastering this new challenge.

It will take a lot of time before I will start becoming successful as a science writer. There is lots of time. I am not going to a fire. I will just take things slowly and take things one step at a time. Eventually I will reach my destination. There is a lot of hard work ahead of me but I feel that I am up to it. I am looking forward to my journey. I am going to seek to enjoy the journey and eventually arrive at my destination.

Wish me luck.


Sunday, May 10, 2009

Hobbies

I personally believe that hobbies are very beneficial to ones mental health. Especially if one isn't working. We need to find things to do that will occupy our time. We do not want to be just sitting around doing nothing. That just gives us opportunity to dwell on our problems. We need to get away from our thoughts and be occupied with something.

A person needs to sit down and figure out what sort of things that they enjoy doing. Maybe even experimenting with different activities just to find out what we do like. There are myriads of choices out there. For example. Reading, listening to music, painting, drawing, knitting, playing a musical instrument, writing, and playing computer games. These are things that someone can do individually.

There are other things one can do that involves other people. For example. Playing hockey, soccer, tennis, baseball, playing board games, playing card games, playing floor hockey, volley ball, playing chess, engaging in track and field, skiing, snowshoeing with others, and many other activities as well.

A person can engage in activities such as bird watching, hiking, canoeing, fishing, camping, nature watching, back packing, whale watching, winter camping, and deep sea fishing. The list is endless.

All these activities are very beneficial to a persons mental health. Doing things that don't involve other people are great for just spending time with yourself. A person needs time out from all the other activities and hassles of life. Engaging in individual activities help you get focused on what you are doing and just have fun. It teaches you to be successful at your activity. It helps you develop good self-esteem. It teaches you to believe in yourself. It shows you that you can do things and be successful at what you are doing. It is just beneficial to you psychologically and emotionally. It gives you a sense of accomplishment. It gives you something to do to give you meaning and purpose in life. A person does not have to work to find meaning and purpose in life. You can find it in your hobbies. Overall it is just great for you mental health.

What about engaging in activities that involve other people? This is very beneficial to your mental health as well. It helps you get out and be with other people. You don't have to sit around where you live and be alone all of the time. Consumers have a habit of sticking to themselves and not getting out to socialize. It's a pretty lonely life. If we get out and engage in activities with others we are not so alone in life. It teaches us how to conduct oneself appropriately when engaging in social activities. It teaches us how to communicate with others. It teaches us what team work is all about. Very simply engaging in social activities brings much joy and happiness in life.

Overall hobbies are a great thing to have in ones life. The benefits are endless. I have just scratched the surface. There many many other benefits to engaging in hobbies as well. If you are just sitting around not doing anything with your time try to pick something that you might enjoy doing and give it a try. You will be surprised at the outcome. If you have to experiment with different activities until you find one that best suits your personality, and that you love to do. I engage in hobbies when I am not working at my jobs that I have. I get great pleasure out of doing this. I get the same benefits from it that I have been discussing in this article. Give it a try. You will not be disappointed.

My Computer

My computer is my sanity. I spend 99% of my spare time on my computer.

I use it for my research. I have several blogs on the net that I write for. I use my computer for my writing for my two writing jobs. I also play computer games on it as well.

I do a lot of research on the net. I research Christianity, schizophrenia, concurrent disorders, addiction, and alcoholism. I also do some research on Church History. I also do research on the scientific aspects to mental illness, concurrent disorders, addiction, and alcoholism. Especially scientific research on these topics. I am an intellectual type person. I get great pleasure out of doing research. I would rather do research on these topics than read a novel. To me personally reading novels is just a waste of time. I am a knowledge seeker. I want to get knowledge. There is a saying, "knowledge is power." Especially if it's the right type of knowledge.

Concerning my blogs I am having a ball. I just love writing. I love the very act of writing. I love sharing my knowledge with others through the medium of writing. I also love to share my experience, strength, and hope with others. I love writing about my personal experiences. I love to use my writing skills to help others. I love to tell others that there is hope. Recovery is truly possible.

I presently have two writing jobs. I write for the "A Mental Health Perspective" newsletter. This newsletter is published by the Kings County Branch of the Canadian Mental Health Association. It is an excellent newsletter. It has quite a wide distribution. It is distributed all over Nova Scotia, even as far as Australia. I love writing for this newsletter. It gives me the opportunity to help the mental health community. I can also help reduce that awful stigma out there in society. One way to reduce stigma is to educate the public about mental illness. I also write for the "Schizophrenia Newsletter" published by the Kings County Chapter of the Schizophrenia Society of NS. This newsletter comes out every four months. It contains a lot of good articles pertaining to schizophrenia. It covers a variety of subject matter on schizophrenia. It is the perfect medium to get the word out there. I just love writing for this newsletter.

When I need to get away from it all I play computer games. I just love playing war games. I play with infantry men, tanks, half tracks, war planes, and other types of war machines. I can play my games for hours even without a smoke break. I do this just for fun and relaxation. It gets my mind off the everyday hassles of life. It gets me away from my problems for awhile. It is just time out for myself.

Overall computers are a very important component in my life. I use them both for work and for fun. I get much pleasure and satisfaction out of using computers. I am grateful and thankful that man has invented computers. Without my computer I would be like a little lost sheep in the wilderness. Thank God for computers.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

The Benefits of Working

There are a lot of benefits to working. I am going to share how working is beneficial to me personally.

Working helps me psychologically. It gives me a sense of accomplishment. I accomplish something every time I put in a days work. It makes me feel that I am a productive member of society. I work to help support myself and I also pay income tax. It gives me an opportunity to socialize with other members of society. Going to work everyday gives me meaning and purpose in life which I never had when I wasn't working. I have something to look forward to everyday. I get the sense that I am living a normal lifestyle because working is essential component of life. I am doing what the rest of society is doing. I personally feel that I am part of the community I live in because everyone else is working as well. I do not feel like an outcast of society any more. I am one with society. Even though I work I still receive some assistance from social services. I do not make enough income to completely support myself but I feel good because I am doing all that I can to support myself and bring in some income even though it is not enough to completely go off of social assistance.

Of course, I benefit financially. If I was not working I would not be able to afford my internet. I am able to afford my tobacco which I would not be able to buy if I wasn't working. After these two things are taking care of I have extra money for other things. I spend some money on my wife. I just love to be able to buy things for Kim. I also have some money to spend on myself as well. Sometimes things crop up and I have the money to take care of these things as well.

Overall working benefits me psychologically, emotionally, and financially. I am just so grateful and thankful that I am able to work. There was a time when I wasn't able to work as a result of my mental illness's, addiction, and alcoholism. I was unemployed for a period of roughly 20 to 25 years. Now, I have been working since August 2001 in the regular work force like the rest of society. I feel good about the whole thing. Recovery is truly possible. There is hope.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Treating The Whole Person

At the present moment the psychiatric profession treats schizophrenia in two ways. The bedrock of treatment is medication of course. We need medication to get the positive and negative symptoms under control. Once the medication takes hold and gets the symptoms under control then consumers receive psycho-social treatments which are based on the concepts of psychology.

What about the rest of the person? I personally believe that mankind has a spiritual side to them. When people talk about the medication and the psychological side to treatment everything is just fine. Once you start talking about treating the spiritual side everyone gets up in arms. Especially if one starts talking about religion. Particularly Christianity. Why is that? For me personally if it wasn't for my religious beliefs I would not be able to recover from my two mental illness's, addiction, and alcoholism. I just cannot recover just from medication and psycho-social treatments. I need the spiritual element in my treatment and recovery.

Sad to say one cannot receive the spiritual part of treatment from the mental health profession. One has to figure out that part of their treatment on their own. For many consumers that is a very difficult thing to do. Consumers need guidance for their psycho-social treatments. We all need human guides in life. What about spiritual guides. We need someone that would be able to guide us in the spiritual part of our treatment.

Unfortunately I don't have a spiritual guide. The church that I was involved in viewed my mental illness as demon possession. I was full of evil spirits. As a result of this I have not gone back to that church. I have never found someone to be my spiritual guide in life. I am left on my own to try to figure out the spiritual aspect to my recovery. I am thankful that I have been able to figure out what to believe and how to utilize those beliefs and apply them to the spiritual part of my recovery.

The purpose of my writing is to share my experience, strength, and hope with others to help them with their recovery. I personally feel that I cannot share the spiritual side of recovery on this blog for the reason being that my spiritual beliefs are fundamentalist in nature. If I started sharing my fundamentalist Christian beliefs it would offend a lot of people and people would stop reading my blog. People would think what does that have to do with recovery. Much every way. My religious beliefs are a major part of my recovery. If I am to recover I need to treat my whole person not just part of me. The spiritual part of me needs to be fulfilled if I am to enjoy a full and complete recovery. Up to this point I have been trying desperately to avoid the spiritual aspect to my recovery. I have touched on it briefly on a couple of my entries. I didn't go into much detail though.

I do mention my religious beliefs on other blogs but I haven't done so on this one. I have been trying to confine it to just the medical and psychological aspects of treatment. By doing this I have not been sharing my whole recovery with others. Like I said before the spiritual aspect is a major part of my recovery. I have been only telling half my story. Their is a lot more to my experience, strength, and hope concerning my recovery.

I am in a strait betwix two. I am between a rock and a hard place. I don't know what to do about this issue I have been discussing. Deep within my heart, mind, and soul I want to share my whole recovery with my fellow man. If I am to be honest with my readers I am too afraid and a coward to share my religious beliefs with others on this blog. I am afraid of stepping on people's toes and offending them. I am afraid that people will stop reading this blog.

Yet I am being dishonest with my readers by not sharing my whole and complete recovery. I have only been sharing half of my recovery. Not all of it. I just wanted to share these things with my readers. I just felt a need to share this with my faithful readers who read my blog.

Good luck in your own personal recovery.